posting ni aku rasa dah lambat tulis kot, tapi dengan selambanya aku pusing balik tarikh blog ni. ha ha ha. jumaat lepas, mak, kakak dengan kakak sedara aku nak balik kuantan. aku teringin aje nak ikut, tapi malangnye aku ada kerja sikit kat kl ni ha. tengok le kalau senang, teringin gak aku pergi sana, makan mi kat planet kari. mmm…sedap. nak dijadikan cerita, masa nak hantar diorang ke puduraya, dah lambat. bas pukul 8:30pm, bertolak dari rumah pukul 7:30pm. peh, ligan aku dari rumah ke puduraya. dah le jalan jem macam palat. habis semua skill-skill driving (kononnye) aku keluarkan sebab nak kasi sampai. tapi tak sempat. lambat 5 minit je, bas dah berambus. kaunter transnasional kata boleh tahan kat tol gombak. aku pun apa lagi, speeding macam orang gile hantar diorang ke sana. ramai la kot yang menyumpah cara driving aku hari tu kot. tapi lantak lah. janji diorang sempat naik bas. tapi kalau driving cara gila ni tak boleh buat selalu-selalu. tak elok…hehe. balik rumah aku terus pengsan, penat.

hujung minggu aku kat kl ni aku sibuk buat assignment aje. vb lah, data com lah. pening kelapa parut kepala aku. sempat la jugak aku pergi shah alam, lepak dengan ustaz kat cc dia tuh. kesian dia kena dera, aku mintak buatkan vb aku. keh keh keh…boleh tahan cc tuh, pakai streamyx sdsl. apai yang setup server routing kat situ. tapi aku tengok cam tak power je. ada error sana sini. ustaz aku lagi terror kot, selamba aje setting 2 ketul server untuk satu bangunan besar (ayat untuk mengipas member). aku ingat nak datang waktu pagi shah alam ni, boleh jalan tengok-tengok, ambik gambar, etc. tapi disebabkan keadaan dan pemandangan masih sama dan aku tak nak terserempak dengan ‘X’ atau geng-gengnya yang lain, aku datang le malam. lagi best kot? ha ha ha…baki-baki hujung minggu aku ni, aku lepak dengan ayah aku. jalan-jalan, belanja dia makan, etc. lama dah tak lepak dengan ayah aku. aku ingatkan nak belanja time fathers day haritu, tapi tak sempat sebab ayah aku busy. kalau ada masa terluang lagi, teringin gak aku pergi penang lepak dengan ayah aku kat sana…

i frequently playing with video camera nowdays. last week was mru’s piala agong, so i had to be their cameraman, taking the match video from start till end. penat lah berdiri 1 jam lebih. the video turned out to be okay although this is the first time me being a sports match cameraman. the match are at utm jalan semarak and of course, i went there with shimi. after the match (sabah vs atm), the sabah team claimed for a misjudge and we had to go to cobra club and play the video back. it’s kinda cool, first time and the video get to be an evidence. on saturday, we went to padang merbuk for the final match (atm vs selangor), and again, i had to be mru’s cameraman. the video i took improved a bit since the last match. after the match, i got to be friends with mama juwie. he he he. i gave him a lift to his hotel at hotel quality. he was busy that day. after covering the rugby match for utusan, he then has to cover the festival filem malaysia. unfortunately i forgot to gave him my business card but i managed to promote my works and website ha ha ha. he even asked for the rugby match photos since utusan’s cameraman was not there. phew! what a week…

me, tired, sleeping. picture taken without my permission. ciss…

whuttup all. been busy lah last week. i’m helping shimi with his technical thing for the woman & sport seminar at hotel istana. i got to hang out there, which is cool. never been to hotel istana before. the food there are fabulous especially their italian food. the spaghetti, pasta, cakes, emm…yumm. but it costs you a rm200 per head lah. mine’s was sponsored. he he he. i also get to hanging out with popular people such as datuk khalid yunus, y.m tunku imran, ras adiba radzi, datuk azalina, tun siti hasmah and the queen. but sadly, there are lack of hot chicks there. tak boleh cuci mata.

this week started with a unfortunate event. my sister crashed her car into a wall. luckily my sister was okay. the damages? the axel of her brand new kelisa limited edition was bend and nearly broken which makes the car hard to push, the car bumper was crushed and other visible damages such as scratch, etc. i had to be at balai polis jalan bandar for about 1 hour to make a police report for insurance claim and follow the tow truck to the workshop. the next day, i had to went there again to submit the insurance forms, etc. fun eh? well, that is the perks of being the family man. hope this insurance document processing and repairing works shit went smoothly and fast. i hate waiting.

with the class time table on full swing, i felt a bit tired having to go to class everyday at 9 am. usually on holidays, i wont be up yet at this time. but it’s okay lah having to kecoh-kecoh in class, ‘poyo’ing, hanging out at mamak, slacking, kutuk other students, gossiping and my favourite perverting some hot chicks in my class. looking and praising her boobs and body everyday with my buddy. hey, i might make my move on one of these girls. ha ha ha. i spend my time mostly nowdays with mel. actually kesian with him being alone at his rent room and of course, him having to deal this ‘tension’ bridge everyday with nad which came up after he broke up with her. it’s awkward when we broke up with someone, for example, a classmate and had to see he/her everyday and not talking with each other. itulah mel, dulu dah nasihat tak nak dengar. degil. sekarang apa dah jadi? aku jugak yang susah. palat le hang ni. i went job hunting with mel after class at menara great eastern. the mall just opened and there are not many shops there yet. probably we will search at sungai wang tomorrow. so, after wandering around and see there are no job vacancy, we went to ampang point for a game of bowling instead. as usual, i lose the game. my skills went AWOL lah. he he he…i prefer pool anyway.

whatddupp…my class has already started. strangely, this semester, my class kinda full. ramai orang. maybe that’s okay. new friends, a lot of potentials for me, he he he. but some of them still malu-malu la with my friends and i which resulted in note photostat problem and even some undistributed news. there’s still no connection between my group and the other group. probably sometime next month we will begin to click. nevermind that. this month, i’m busy with class and web designing. i also have started to remodify this blog system. probably there will be some unnoticable changes. the layout will still be the same though. malas la nak tukar. anywhoo, tomorrow i’m off to melaka for my sister mmu registration. probably no updates lah for 2 or 3 days.

oh hey, not to forget, today is my sister 18th birthday. so, happy birthday to you lah and thanks to nuai for the souvenir pasu sabah. terima kasih bah…he he he…

because of not able to get the movie tickets the other day, i went to mid valley with shimi again yesterday to get the ticket. i woke up late, so i went there at about 2pm. parking is as usual, hard to find. nasib baik i found one near the movie entrance. we queue for the ticket for about one hour and finally i managed to get the tickets. 7 of them which i had to ‘autograph’ because gsc don’t want us to refund the ticket. while wandering around, i realized that our stomach was empty. after much thinking, we decided to go on with our planning to try out teppanyaki at the food court (mid valley megamall). it is a nice experience and fun actually to have someone cook your meal in front of you. so we know what’s inside the food. there, i ordered beef teppanyaki. it was good. mmm…

i’m not a fan of harry potter but because of my relatives and my sisters wanted to watch the movie, i had to join them. the movie starts at 12:30am. with the tickets sold out, i though the theater will be packed with people but actually there are not many people in the movie theater which is good, so i can rest my leg onto the front seat. and the movie? okay la…i think.

went bowling last night with my relatives. actually, our planning was to watch the movie harry potter but it was sold out. even the gold class tickets (cinema at mid valley). what to do? shimi accompany me at mid valley since he told me that the place was his ‘play ground’ not that i don’t know mid valley much but. the place were crowded with kids on school holiday and not to forget, those pkn boys and girls who just completed their training. it’s different from any other weekdays where the place were peaceful and fun to walk around. we just wander at mid valley instead because of the no tickets available plus shimi wanted to buy some rj45’s.

it was a while since i bowl. about a year i think. probably lost some of my skills in that time. while i was at uitm shah alam, i seldom go bowl with friends and learn some new skills. not that i am very good at it but, boleh tahan la. it’s kinda addiction. anywhoo, my relatives and i went bowling at superbowl ampang point. the lanes there were packed. there’s 4 people before me in the waiting list. we were thinking of taking two lanes because there were six of us. but then, we just use one lane for six people. damn, it took a long time just to finish one game. my usual shoe size was 7 and my favourte ball number is 12. i’m thinking of buying my own bowling ball…someday. halfway through the second game, the bowling machine just suddenly hanged or stucked or i would like to say, fucked up. we called for assistance twice at the supervisor table but all of them are stupid fuckers and i repeat, m*****fuckers. firstly, the came to my lane and banged the machine couple of times and then just leave us without saying anything. they just ignored us. those ignorant fuckers. i went to the supervisor about 20 times but no response. i pay for the game rm70++, no refund and they give me a crap service. indeed, this is the way a ***** doing business. screwing people all walks of life. damn you all

while bowling there, i saw a malay woman walking with a mat saleh. i presume that they were a couple, with the holding hands and all. takkanle adik beradik? are malay women nowdays proud if they have a mat saleh as a boyfriend? or they are so cheap that they love to screw some money from that guy and don’t care what are their face look like or they just like to show off that they have a mat saleh as a boyfriend. i don’t know lah. bangga rasanya kot? but then, just look at our malay artist. most of them marry a mat saleh. probably it makes them famous, noticeable or whatever. local guys should feel threatened…ban mat saleh immediately! hohoho…

yeaa…an update. i’m lazy to update this blog nowdays. probably because of my college has started or it is just because my lack of commitment. ho ho ho. last week was a busy week. after back from sukma, my phone rang non-stop. a customer kept bugging me for their website design and friends from malaynet have been asking me to go with them to tm net’s myloca at cyberjaya to look at our servers. i really want to go with them but i was busy at malaysian olympic council helping to set up their networks and websites. it took me two days to complete it. then, i had to rush back to my home because all of my relatives are there. i have to entertain them, of course. took them to sungai buloh, etc. probably i’ll made another appointment to go to myloca. i have a class yesterday and it goes well…for now. i sense that, this semester my class will be packed and with some new faces. he he he. now i am busy setting up a webmail and a secure web server and sending my sister to her workplace everyday. anywhoo, my classes will be back full swing next week, so probably i’ll have an interesting story to tell everyday. till then, ta!

working under the sun with a crappy shade
phew…finally i’m in kl after 3 days stuck in kuala pilah for sukma x 2004. shimi and i was assigned by malaysian rugby union to do some IT works, website updates and assist the sukma ict team in updating the results. it was very very tiring. anywhoo, i want to write the 3 days story in malay and the story is fuckin long. learn malay if you don’t understand it and if you want to read my story…

bertolak
shimi datang ambik aku kat rumah. time tu dah petang dan hujan. memula nak bertolak awal, tapi sebab shimi pergi sewa kereta, pastu mamat yang bagi sewa tu lambat, kiterang pun terkandas la sekejap. disebabkan shimi dah struggle gile sewa kereta, aku pun dengan rela hati drive le pergi kuala pilah. lagi satu sebab shimi dah ready duduk kat passenger seat time aku nak ke kereta. ho. nak masuk ke highway pun satu hal gak. kiterang tersangkut kat mrr2. hujan sikit je jam gile babi. kereta yang shimi sewa tu pun hard core sikit, lampu brek ke 3 je nyala. takpe selamba.

sesampai je kat seremban, kiterang call raqi, suruh dia jumpa kat ampangan. seremban masih cam dulu gak time aku pergi haritu. dapat jumpa raqi kejap je sebab dia ada hal. no problem aa…kiterang makan jap kat ampangan, pastu terus gerak ke kuala pilah. tension nya kuala pilah ni sebab jalan dia aje. berbengkok-bengkok. kiterang diberi tempat penginapan kat hotel nama desa inn. sampai kuala pilah, kiterang tercari-cari hotel tu. tanya-tanya orang baru jumpa. bilik kiterang ni jadi port lepak, jadi happening sikit la bilik. kat situ gak jadi tempat bersukan. ho ho…

bila bilik dah clear, kiterang jalan-jalan kat kuala pilah. ambik angin sambil cari kedai mamak mana yang masih bukak. time tu dah pukul 2:30 pagi rasanya. memang dah dijagkakan lah, kuala pilah memang berbeza dengan kl. pasaraya dekat sebelah hotel kiterang je. tengok-tengok banyak gak le kedai makan kat situ, tapi bukak time pagi aje la kot. masa kiterang ronda-ronda kuala pilah ushar jalan, bandar tu memang sunyi. last-last jumpa gak tempat makan kat atas dari town. kiterang melantak roti canai pastu balik hotel tido. penat beb.

hari pertama
first day kiterang lambat datang. match first dalam pukul 9. shimi la bangun lambat…haha. tempat sukan ragbi ni kat sekolah tuanku muhammad kat kuala pilah. sesampai je, orang semua tengah sibuk-sibuk. lepas kene briefing dengan che din, kiterang ambik tag sukma (kad akredasi), pastu terus setup command centre kiterang sebelah bilik ict. aku ingatkan dapat duduk bawah tempat teduh ke, dalam bilik ke. rupa-rupanya buat kerja tepi padang ni aaa bawah matahari. panas gile. kalau tak sebab orang mru carikan payung besar untuk kiterang, berpanas la kat situ. habis cair notebook aku nanti. dah setel command centre, aku pun on le notebook lama aku ni. kiterang diberitahu yang line internet kat sukma ni power. tm direct 2mbps. tapi bile aku sambung je wayar network kat notebook aku ni, macam palat. diorang pakai proxy, jadi banyak hal nak kena setup itu ini. menyusahkan. bila line internet dah dapat, speed dia pulak macam palat. slow nak mampus. cakap nya beriye-iya kata line laju, semua ada. sungguh bullshit. shimi selidik-selidik, dapat tau yang line internet ni sharing dengan server website sukma x. pastu line internet ni, telekom buat ala kadar je. tarik line network dari seremban ke kuala pilah. jauh gile tu. apa la salahnya dia pakai streamyx aje.

untuk result rasmi, orang boleh xs website sukma. tapi kiterang buat satu website khas untuk result sukma kat website mru. jadi sesiapa yang datang website mru dapat tengok result terkini. secara real time. untuk menambahkan ke’best’an website tu, kiterang letak le shout box, video clip dengan gambar. kasi menarik sikit. ict sukma ni bodow sket, sebab diorang block port 21 keluar. jadi terpaksa la aku guna webftp malaynet yang aku setup dulu. nasib baik boleh guna. jadi bila nak update website, aku kene upload satu-satu la pakai web. dah macam geocities lak. bila naik tengahari, aku dah start rasa bahang. berpeluh telur aku. payung besar yang ada pun tak mampu menahan. jadi untuk elakkan notebook kiterang ni meletup, lepas beberapa jam buat kerja, kiterang shutdown notebook pastu jalan-jalan ambik gambar dan video dan angin. time rehat, kiterang pergi cari kedai yang jual nasik lauk. dapat gak merasa masakan negeri sembilan. time rehat tu, kiterang cari cc kejap sebab nak buat kerja scan gambar. nasib baik sepol ada, dia sound ada cc kat sebelah kfc. cc tu aku tengok, ada lagi bebudak yang main half-life. teringat aku time tahun 1999 dulu main half-life ramai-ramai. hussler dulu woo main game ni.

match last sekali, melaka lawan perlis. melaka menang 19 0. time tu dah pukul 6 lebih. kiterang stay sekejap sebab nak transfer gambar dan video dari kamera aku. notebook kiterang takde firewire, jadi terpaksa la pinjam pc ict sukma, masukkan firewire card aku bawak dari kl. banyak gak video aku ambik. ada dekat 1gb size. nak pilih mana satu pun pening. banyak yang best. habis transfer, kiterang pergi beli megi kat kedai jap pastu balik hotel, terus tido. penat gile hari tu.

hari kedua
disebabkan hari pertama dah datang lambat, kiterang ingat nak datang awal hari kedua. lepas makan je, terus speed pergi. sampai je, tengok orang pun ramai tak sampai lagi. match start pukul 11. kiterang sampai dalam pukul 10 kot. hoho. tapi ok laa…dapat parking dekat. kalau tak manjang double parking je. hari kedua ni takde rehat. terus menerus dari pagi sampai petang. sakit gak le. dengan data entry, update website, pastu nak ambik gambar dengan video lagi. penat gile.

time hari kedua ni, aku duk ushar-ushar hot chicks je. tak ramai sangat le kat sini. well, kalau aku jaga sukan akuatik, ramai la hot chicks. biasa la aku, gersang. time petang, shimi sound aku kiterang kene pergi dinner sukma kat dewan besar kuala pilah. takpe la kot, kalau makan-makan ni aku on aje. time makan tu, ada la band main lagu-lagu yang popular sekarang. nanti aku upload la video dinner tu. ok gak le band tu main. tapi aku ingat ada artis popular…haha. lepas dinner, kiterang gerak ke seremban jumpa raqi. dah sangap sangat duduk kat kuala pilah ni tak buat apa-apa. kiterang pi makan-makan kat ampangan. puas la jugak duk pujuk raqi suruh datang kuala pilah. tapi dia tak dapat. well, tak kisah le kot. balik kuala pilah, kiterang buat kerja sket, makan megi pastu terus tido dengan laptop on semua.

hari ketiga
final day. kiterang sampai lambat sikit, jadi terpaksa double parking. hari ni semua nak datang, tuanku jaafar, tengku naquiyuddin. menteri besar aje la kot tak datang. aku tengok fru pun ada mungkin sebab takut bebudak kelantan dengan negeri sembilan gaduh cam match bola tu. tapi bebudak ragbi apa barang nak gaduh-gaduh. gentlemen la. lepas siapkan command centre, berusaha la kiterang nak update result kat web. dekat pukul 3 aje, internet down. nak access apa-apa pun tak boleh. kiterang pun tanya-tanya la kenapa. ict kat seremban kata internet satu malaysia down. aku pun terpikir. apa ke lancaunya reason macam tu? diorang ingat kiterang ni bodoh betul ke sampai nak percaya reason macam tu sekali. walaupun telekom malaysia ni memang sial sket, takkan le bodoh sangat diorang sampai dns server diorang boleh down? ntah apa-apa. nak menipu orang pun berpada-pada la. selidik punye selidik, rupa-rupanya diorang shut down proxy server sebab orang ict seremban tak bersungguh-sungguh buat kerja. asyik download video dengan mp3 aje.

ish orang seremban ni macam tak pernah jumpa internet la pulak. tau la line laju kat seremban. rilek-rilek la. aku kat kuala pilah tu nak download pun takde selera. kat kl pun kekadang takde mood. bila diorang dah shutdown proxy server tuh, maknanya kiterang dah tak boleh buat kerja dah. nak access website mru ke, nak ftp ke semua tak boleh. kene tutup kedai. kiterang shutdown semua notebook pastu bungkus. kemas kedai. bebudak ict tengok pun takut je, diorang rasa kiterang mengamuk kot? huh…bodoh sungguh. aku dengan shimi ingat nak balik dah tapi sebab match belum habis, stay aje la kot. shimi pergi update result hard copy untuk mru, aku plak angkut le tongkat kamera aku ni ke sana ke sini nak ambik gambar. nak tambah bengang, time aku tengah ambik gambar, ada pulak budak pergi pegang lens kamera aku. nak mengamuk aje rasanya. nasib baik budak.

time tungku naquiyuddin dengan tuanku jaafar datang, dapat le jugak aku berasak-asak dengan media nak ambik gambar. gambar dan video yang aku dapat ni kira ok la jugak. ha ha…best best. time bagi hadiah pun dapat la jugak angle-angle yang menarik untuk menagmbil gambar. hafis telefon aku kata dia nak datang kuala pilah. respek la jugak aku dengan hafis. sanggup datang dari johor. bebudak lain yang duduk dekat pun tak datang. ada aje reason-reason bodoh. habis match akhir, kelantan lawan negeri sembilan (kelantan menang 19 0), kiterang dengan hafis gerak ke seremban, pergi minum-minum sambil cari souvenir sukma. kiterang lepak kat tempat makan kat pusat akuatik seremban. kiterang ajak raqi lepak sekali. macam biasa, kat pusat akuatik tu, aku ushar-ushar lagi hot chicks. gersang beb. ho ho. hafis ajak pergi berkemah kat port dickson, tapi time tu kiterang pun dah aku dengan shimi penat gile, nak balik kl. sambil tu, kiterang ajak hafis turun kl. dia pun tak nak gak.

sesampai aje aku kat kl ni, balik rumah terus tido. tak ingat dunia punye. ho ho. secara kesimpulannya, sukma kat negeri sembilan ni ok la, tapi satu bende aje yang aku tak puas hati. bahagian ict dioarang la. incompetent. tak bersungguh-sungguh. pastu lagisatu kuat menipu. tipu yang mengarut-mengarut pulak tu. patutla ada member yang kerja kat majlis olimpik cakap, sukma ni low class. apa barang ek? hehe…okey, aku sign off dulu. nak sambung tido.

a couple of weeks ago, the star newspaper has contacted me asking about the blog life of a malaysian student. did i mention this earlier in my blog? anywhoo, this website was featured in the star newspaper today on the education section. it’s titled ‘when life’s an open blog’. you can see the article here or you can just buy the star newspaper. thanks a bunch to jamie khoo of the star.

on other note, today i will be in kuala pilah, negeri sembilan doing some IT works such as data entry, website and results updates, etc. for the malaysian rugby union during the sukma x 2004. last time i went there for a mock run, sukma people tells me that they have a superb internet connection (tm direct – speed up to 2mbps) for me to do the works. i hope they don’t suck on the match day because lately they are (well, you know…telekom). i’ll find a time to update my blog. probably i even give you all some pictures or videos or even updates of the sukma x 2004.

i was at sungai wang to get my sister’s car. she was involved in a small accident and my sister are currently freaked out. so, tomorrow probably i’ll have to take the car to workshop for some body work. anybody here have a workshop that can do a body work for a low price? i’ll advertise your shop here…hehe

i was very hungry at the time. so, i went to my friends restaurant for a dinner plus he want to belanja. after finishing the meal, i felt guilty not having to pay for the food. so, i volunteer to take the customer order. there were a group of girls just arrived. armed with a paper and a pen, i walk to their table. after ordering, they asked me with some obnoxious question. they even asked me what are the specialties here. duhh, can’t they read the menu? it’s clearly written. rasa macam nak kasi pelempang. anywhoo, i just stare them for a moment, left to the kitchen and then went home to write this blog. hahaha. yeah, girls too can be a jackass. even worse than a boy.

i live in a community where the majority are malay. it’s fun because we knew each other along the road where i live. last month, we even have a family day just for the people living along the road i live and it was a blast. the people there are caring about each other. they helped each other for example like kenduri or such. i’m not saying that other community or multi-racial community are not fun or not like mine. most of the community in malaysia are like mine, they socialize and caring about other people. besides kl, i have a apartment at bayan baru, penang. here, we don’t mingle that much like in kl, oh and it’s a multi-racial community. most of the time, we spent the time in the house. when we had to go out, the we just wave our hand and say hi to the neighbour. probably because it is an apartment and it’s hard to socialize with the neighbour. but it is not a reason not to socialize with neighbour whether we live in a bungalow, flat or whatever. maybe i should take a move in socializing with my neighbour at penang. back to the story at kl, although the neighbours looked for each other, they had this one thing. they kinda not respecting each other. this statement probably not true and i’m just ranting but last night, there were some people using the dewan serbaguna (that was seldomly used by umno cawangan at my place like it’s their dewan although it is a multi-purpose hall) at my house. they were doing a barbeque or gathering or whatever there. the problem is, they parked their cars everywhere, blocked the road and give some hard time for people to went out. as usual, i was mad. i just sabar and made me believe that these people were an outsider who don’t know the rules here and how to respect other people. i mean, come on. do whatever you want to do, but don’t susahkan other people. besides this, sometimes there are some inconsiderate people who parked their cars in front of my house and blocked my path. even after honking several times, they just ignored it and won’t move their car. i had to went inside their house and asked them to move their car. my rage is still in the medium level, so, it’s lucky that i don’t ran amok with a parang or something.

urgh…i was locked out from my house today. i didn’t bring my key when i went out, so i had to wait for my mother to come home, that about 2 hours later. it really suck having to sit and wait in front of the house like a jackass. it’s hot and boring…argh…

somebody i barely knew on the net just send me a package of vcd. weird though, we just knew for couple of weeks and then he send me a vcd which contains an ‘edisi siasat’ kinda movie. it have an explicit images and not suitable for kids or to cut the crap, it is sort of a porno movie. of course i watched it a little 8-). then a day or two, other somebody i barely knew on the net kept bugging me to send the vcd to her. yes, it’s a girl. it seems the guy who send the vcd to me told her that i have a copy of the vcd. she just claim that she was bored and wanted to see the vcd. hell yeah i’m shocked because i am an old fashion guy. but then, what the hell. she even asked me to go to her house and send it to her. i didn’t send to her yet. man, i don’t know. significant event can lead to other significant event. playing with fire is dangerous. what should i do?