the holiday is almost at the end. the fun time is now officially over. now it’s back to waking up early in the morning, go to class and listen to the lecturer. no freetime (not like i’m doing anything on my freetime anyway. i sleep almost all day). my gpa last semester was ok. it’s not hard to maintain it but i have to be positive all the time and of course, rajin to go to the class lah. with the starting of this new semester, i felt like messed up, like always. i had these problem with some friends and it suck. even my parents don’t trust me anymore. not like i’m blaming them. because sometimes it only took one people to to cause it and to blame it on. and that would be me. lately i started to create this sentences: “kawan hanyalah sebuah fatamorgana” (friend is just an illusion) just because i had this problem with a friend. everything i do will alter the course of the future and all the people surrounding me. every action has it reaction. when everything has already happened, we can only sit back, analyze and think. in the end, it’s the what if that hurts the most. what if things gone a little different. if only…

it’s been a while since i post. i work in front of a computer yet i don’t have any time to write on my blog. but, nevermind that. while surfing for some information, i came across this website that have this quote:

yeah dude, this quote is nice. i’ve been using this quote on my msn messenger till today. many people commented on it though. i’ve noted that all tv stations has begin promoting for general election. i’m excited. this is my first election. on all commercial about election, the one i think is lame and annoy me is on ntv7, the one where people say the wrong line and make a x with their hands. seriously, lame. they could just use many other different concept. i don’t know about others opinion, but i still think it’s lame…ha ha. nowdays i’m eating too much chicken. that’s because my sisters has been working part time at kenny rogers and she brought back home stuffs like chicken (of course), macaroni and cheese, muffins and others. oh, and not to forget. while surfing for information, i came about this website created by edouard levi, called safe for work porn. awesome dude!

i forgot to post about this earlier. probably due to sleeping a lot. my housing area organized a family day last week. specificly for the houses on 14th road. it was great actually, although i came about 30 minutes late. got to know the people on my neighbourhood better. plus, i don’t know there were many hot chicks in my neighbourhood. aheh. got to show my face more often. election day is coming. so was poster war. everywhere i got to see these posters. man. because i have turned 21 last year, i got to vote for the first time this year. probably voting for a new government is just the same as when i were voting for prefects on my school days. pangkah, pangkah and pangkah. anyway, have you registered as a voter yet?

wiungg…weengg…klepap! another mosquito getting slapped by me. i don’t know where they came from. probably from my water fountain as i forgot to put the ‘ubat jentik-jentik’. my biological clock are almost correct. now i sleep at night and awake at day. but the awake part is quite early. at 5:15am every morning. have to tweak it up a little bit. the pepsi twist double shot i drank today, suck. taste more like the normal pepsi twist. anywhuu, while minding my own business, my mum got a called from a stranger claiming he has my mum’s purse and wanted to meet her to return the purse back. thinking it is a joke, my mum laughed and told the guy, sure she will met him. then, when my mum and i search for her purse, it was really missing. the guy told us that he found the purse lying at the road on the way to uia. that was strangely odd. last person who use the car is my sister who went to uia to pick up her stuff and in the early morning, my mum forgot to take out her purse from the car after sending my older sister to work. it was a miracle. there are still honest people in this world. this case maybe a 1/1000th. mostly people ignore what they saw on the road, and if they found a purse, probably they took the contents. later we met the guy who found the purse and thank him. he was driving a trailer on the way to terengganu. man, if he got a time, i surely would like to buy him a dinner or belanja him teh tarik.

hurh…yesterday when on the way to kuala lipis, i was driving at about 130km/h on the karak highway. that’s when suddenly i saw this dude was sitting at the end of a cliff holding something that looks like a camera, speed detector or something. my head goes, damn it, another saman for me. i mean, come on, coming from a cliff, it has to be speedy. if i hit the brakes to often, it can get hot or i might lost control of my car. but anyway, nevermind lah. i’ll try to think positive and thought it was just a guy with a camera. but as always, journey to kuala lipis and back was tiring. when i got home, i just fall asleep until the next day. i don’t even hear my handphone ringing. it’s erna calling me to asked about her company’s website design. and i don’t even completed the design yet…how cool…he he

phew…last night, i was sitting in front of this notebook from day to night. reason? struggling to finish the design for euroaxis. probably most of the time taken to finished this project is this slowass notebook to load its program. i must buy a new ram. boss came to my house at the evening. damn, i was suprised. he knew the streets will be jam since it is already 5pm. but he tells me he went to my house because want to discuss something. well, i have no problem with that. any of my friends are welcomed to my house anytime. then i followed my mum & my sister to the optometrist to pickup the new glasses. i was in my car signalling to the left waiting for this parked car on the left to get out. suddenly when the car left, out of nowhere this fucking asshole just speed up and took my space. i was very angry at that moment :furious:. that’s when i go out of the car and started to verbally abuse :cuss: the driver. i was thinking like chasing him and my hands felt a little lighter and wanted to punch the driver badly. luckily no fists were flying in the air that night or there will be chaos. this is what really wrong with me. i seems can’t control my anger anymore. they all just fly. the doctor has adviced me not to eat meat everyday, cause it can cause a high blood pressure and result in tension and anger. what can i do, that evening my mum cooked me a meat stew and hell no i’m going to waste that. my favourite. well, probably i’ll just find a psychologist or shrink (what they call it now…really?). or probably go on a holiday to langkawi…again to release this stress…ok then, i’m going to kuala lipis today to visit siti nurhaliza at his home…nahh, just going to my sister’s school at mrsm kuala lipis to pick up her spm results.

i was doing nothing last night, err…wait, i was doing something last night. i was busy taking apart computers and assembled it back. yeah, sounds great but it was, erm painful actually. i was doing it for mru. their print server seldom hang or crash, so i was offering boss to assemble a new one based on the default pc and install a new software. the painful part is when opening the casing. the steel was too sharp. i cut myself many times. ishk. but anywhuu, the pc works great. minus the slow processor and busted monitor. after that, i was doing some layout for euroaxis. it’s been a week since i design this layout and i seems can’t get it finished. maybe tomorrow. after finished at mru, i went to puchong to send boss to his house. puchong’s quite far from my house. after breakfast, i went home. because of the time (6:30am) and i want to get home before i trapped in the traffic jam, i was driving at 130km/h all the way from puchong and then i took the ampang/cheras exit which was a mistake because it was damn-damn far although it was a straight road to my house and it has no traffic jams. i arrived at home about 7:20am. but i should’nt do this frequently. i has been warned many times by my mom about driving like an idiot but i barely listen. i need to listen to her advice from now on. accident sucks because i have been in one, no wait, it’s two, wait…err…

hurrah hurrah…finally ustaz is online and he can help me with the linux server. all this while i was stump and don’t know what to do. we can’t log in to the server because the password has been changed by someone. i don’t know who, but now thanks to ustaz, i can now log in. while ustaz is online, i started to asked him all sorts of question mostly about linux…and a part about ‘the ex’ and ‘the hack in the box’. he showed me some neat trick to do with linux and windows. well, it’s just for fun. i always wanted to learn linux. there are times where i installed linux on my pc just to get the feel of it and learning by doing it. yeah…it was cool until i felt that i need some space for my mp3 and video clip i had to delete the linux. probably some day i’ll buy an used computer just for linux so i can experiment and do some stuff. i can’t sleep at night right now. probably because i sleep at day and stay up at night. yeah, i’m busy doing some web design work for some company. i get more idea at night. so, pening kepala lah sikit. but i managed to find some time to tidy up my room. before this, it was a pigsty. now it’s easier to the eye. and yeah, no smell…he he he. lega sikit nak buat kerja.

phew, last night i check, my space has become too crowded. most of them are picture files from my photoblogs. so, like a worried monkey, i download all of the photos (shit, i don’t have any copies on my pc), and started to minimize the graphics and compress them using this great tool i found on download.com. the program was neat. it slashed half of the space my photoblogs use. due to we don’t know what the hell happened problems on my webserver, my imagemagick module was still unavailable. so i had to use manual thumbnailing for the photoblogs. banyak hal la sikit. but somehow i noticed that software thumbnailing is far more better than imagemagick in terms of size and quality. don’t know if i’m about to use software thumbnailing from now on but imagemagick is great because it eliminate the hassle of me having to crop the pictures, uploading, etc. except for the big ass thubnail file size they produced.

:beng: i’ve been insensitive lately. cussing people and not thinking of their emotion. what the hell happened to me? like i’m slowly turning into a full time asshole. i remember one afternoon having just wake up from sleep and started to make some crude joke to one of this people on my ym. suddenly he started to jammed me back. i can say this dude is really pissed off. this is the one person among all my friend that still take my joke too seriously. i mean, too seriously. i don’t know what the hell his problems are but i’ve done many jokes that far more worse than that but the only reactions i get was a bit angry at first but then we just shake hands and get over it. i don’t know lah. probably this whole mess is my fault, or i don’t know how to write properly or whatever. so, to him, all i can say is…:furk:

parents aku baru balik dari penang. ah…akhirnya aku dapat makan nasi yang original. kalau tak biasanya aku makan nasik kedai ataupun kakak aku masak. tapi memandangkan kakak aku pun bz kerja, biasanya nasik kedai aje la. lambat gila aku bangun hari sabtu. dekat pukul 11. bangun sarapan, pastu bantai tidur lagi. ntah le. tak tau pasai apa. masa aku bangun sekejap tuh, tengah mamai, mak aku tanya nak dye rambut ke tak, aku dengan pening kepala pun iyekan aje la. sudahnya bila dah siap, rambut aku perang habis. dah macam orang putih plak. tak kisah la tu kot. malamnye, aku kene teman mak & kakak aku pi pasar malam, depa nak beli ikan. lama seh tak pergi pasar malam ni. kalau tak, dulu2 hari sabtu aje memang pergi ah pasar malam ni. wajib. saja nak tengok-tengok barang makan dan orang. ahe he. dulu masa aku pergi pasar malam, selalu gak aku jadi stalker. hehe. orang first yang aku cari, ex time sekolah dulu. ana cikgu besar. saja je kalau jumpa boleh rehash balik zaman-zaman dahulu kala. lagi sorang yang aku cari, si dee. aku baru tau dia ni jiran setaman aku time kat uitm. anywhuu, kalau jumpa dee ni pun bukannya aku buat borak-borak. sekadar angkat tangan aje. aku tak minat dee. macam kata-kata hilmi semalam time aku borak ngan dia kat dalam msn messenger, takde selera. aheheh…time kat pasar malam ni gak le aku ternampak ada la sekor dua pakai cap dan cermin mata hitam duk jalan-jalan kat pasar malam ni. aku pun terpikir yang gile betul panas malaysia ni sampai malam pun nak pakai cermin mata hitam. mungkin sebab nak bergaya kot…ahehehe…gile. ni disambil aku menaip entry nih, aku tengah testing cd-player aku yang baru. adik aku pi beli, nak ganti yang hilang dulu. well, anywhuu, aku tak suruh pun dia beli ganti balik. tapi bila dia dah beli, lantak le. aku tak kisah…

huhu…akhirnya, final aku dah habis. pening kepala, tension-tension pun dah beransur-ansur hilang. lagipun aku lama aku tak post, busy dengan study (ceeewahhhh…). anywhuu…bile final dah habis ni, aku terpaksa sibuk dengan kerja-kerja web design la. dah melambak dah. tak siap-siap. untuk ringankan kerja aku, aku buat sub kat sesapa yang berminat nak design grafik untuk aku. ada la yang berminat. sekarang aku ada la selalu lepak kat mru. tolong-tolong si boss setting server olympic ni. pakai linux redhat, boleh la sikit-sikit. aku reti mandrake aje, walaupun linux mana-mana pun sama gak. tapi tadi ada masalah dengan login root. bengong, kene mintak tolong ustaz gak nanti. dia ok je, takpe la kot. aku bila kat mru ni suka download aje sebab rate dia lagi tinggi dari rumah aku. sini 1mb, rumah aku 512 je. aku punya cd player hilang haritu. aku letak dalam kereta. pastu adik aku pulak bawak kereta pastu parking kat luar rumah tak kunci kereta. apa lagi, kena sapu lah. aku perasan time kereta ada kat luar rumah tuh, aku ada nampak satu lori parking depan rumah nenek putih. aku hanya mampu syak aje la. tapi apa boleh buat kan. benda dah hilang. sayang aku dengan cd player tu. cam nyawa. kumpul duit siap punye lama nak beli…ahe he…

hari ni aku kena bangun awal. iyelah, tengah syok-syok tido elma telefon aku. tapi aku tak sempat jawab. bila aku call balik, dia sound aku pasal assignment c. aku duk termenung kejap, pastu baru aku teringat yang nak kena antar hari ni. aku apelagi, cepat2 mandi, pastu pegi kolej. sampai kolej aku lepak ngan mel kejap kat bawah, isap rokok. dia pun apa lagi, open cerita yang dia nak ushar si nad. aku malas nak layan cerita-cerita camni tapi disebabkan semalam aku dah baca semua mesej dalam henset dia, secara automatiknya dia budget aku tau gak pasal hal tuh. so, terpaksa la aku dengar. time aku lepak kat library, aku dapat le tengok kemesraan diorang dua orang tuh. sampai dah naik meluat aku tengok. anywhuu, aku tak kisah. janji jangan susahkan orang lain udah. pandai-pandai jaga diri. tetiba elma suruh jumpa dia kat kedai fotostat belakang kolej. dia duk buat assignment c kat situ. siap dengan print sekali. huh, elokle. patutnya bagi aku buat, pastu print semua sekali. lagi lawa aku rasa. dia nak cepat lagipun, dia tinggal anak dia dalam kereta. aku terpikir dalam hati aje, apasal tak bawak aje anak dia keluar. harini pulak hari last lecturer aku kat kolej ampang. dia kena pindah ke shah alam. aku suka belajar ngan lecturer ni sebab muka dia ada iras-iras jennifer garner / catherine zeta jones…ahahks. anywhuu, lepas antar assignment, si mel duk mengadu kat aku pasal ada sorang member sound nad pasal nampak dia (mel) jalan ngan awek lain kat ampang park. aku mengeluh, eh bukan, menjerit dalam hati…adui le…masalah cenggini pun nak mengadu kat aku. nak jadi playa, tapi kene kantoi sikit camni pun dah menggelabah gile. aku suh dia lepak-lepak je. buat tak tau udahla. salah satu skill nak jadi playa ni kene denied everything. sebabkan aku tak mau jadi bosan ataupun meluat dengar cerita-cerita jiwang ni, aku balik rumah terus. tido lagi best…