i was waiting for a friend for a supper. when he arrives, he started to rant.

friend: fuck lady driver
me: whoo…whoo…what now? what? why? what the hell? who? when? how?
friend: bla… bla… driving… bla… junction, traffic light. bla… suddenly car came out of nowhere. bla… drive like a fucking idiot…bla bla…almost hit me….bla bla…idiot… lady driver. bla… didn’t watch where she was going. bla…talking on a cellphone… bla…still have a ‘p’ sticker…
me: (gawking) ohh…relax bro, you’ll get a heart attack soon if you don’t chill.
friend: …

i started to think that my friend claim is true sice i also have some experience with a lady driver, especially this ‘specific lady driver’. but of course, not all of them drive like shit. i knew some that drive like a fucking f1 or rally driver. i don’t want to be rude or anything like showing my middle finger, cussing in the open air to them when this occurs or act like those fucking idiot uneducated road bullies. but please lah drive properly. you have to be alert and know where you are going. what you got your license by buying them at a black market or you slept with the jpj examiner? nowdays people get angry very fast especially when on the road. probably because of those radiation from the sun we get everyday. like this one time, a fucking old man drove his van like a fuking idiot, cut me off with a 40 degree angle, nearly hit my car, blocking me and didn’t let me pass just because i honk him because he was blocking the road. what a motherfucker dickhead cocksucking trash eating stupid gung-ho asshole. luckily my car is faster than his car, i managed to cut him off, pass in front of him with just a small gap and of course, finish it with a trademark of showing the middle finger and shouting “fuck you” on top of my lungs. you deserved that.

am i a jackass or what?

ni lagi satu puisi (ye ke?) rasa macam tak betul aje. entahle…

data struct

berjumpa kali pertama
aku tak suka tapi terpaksa
kiri dan kanan
tak dapat ku elak

sepuluh topik
aku tergaru-garu
projek akhir tahun
aku mengeluh lesu

rekursif dan baris gilir tidak ku gemari
kuiz dan latihan susah sekali
paling ku suka graf dan isihan
babnya pendek, mudah difahami

hari ini kita berpisah
kali terakhir aku bersamamu
telah ku cuba sedaya upaya
berharap usahaku berbaloi jua

– azfar ismail @ 04/02/05 – 2:40

at the end of this year, my domain (azfarismail.com) will be expired. i’m still thinking of disposing this domain and use azfar.my instead. a big dilemma here. if i let go, i have an extra 35 bucks every year but i will have some problems with my visitor, server routing, backup server dns records, hostee, subdmains, change of ip and of course, my current e-mail address and my damn 400 pieces name card. maybe i should drop this azfar.my instead and save rm 40 every year. huh…i don’t know. sayang pulak. i think about this later. well, got final tomorrow and it is data struct. later…

aku ada borak-borak dengan kawan aku pasal puisi/sajak. tekun la aku mendengar apa yang dia cakap (thanks for the pointer jackass! ha ha). jadi, untuk menunjukkan aku ni seorang yang ‘cool’ (ha ha ha), aku pun try test tengoook menulis satu sajak/puisi. sekarang ni tengah hujan, jadi aku pilih hujan sebagai tajuk. sori la kalau tak kena ke, macam sial ke. first timer ok?

hujan

hujan

engkau datang
kemudian engkau pergi
menyapu bersih
jalan-jalan dan lorong-lorong

hujan

aku berjalan
kemudian engkau turun
aku basah kuyup
tak sempat berteduh

hujan

engkau membimbangkan warga kota
air naik di merata-rata
jalan sesak di sini sana
kiri dan kanan kereta sahaja

hujan

kilat sabung menyabung
aku mula khuatir
komputerku di rumah
tak ada ‘surge protector’

hujan

engkau turun begitu lebat
membawa denganmu angin yang kencang
dinginnya menusuk ke tulang-tulangku
membuatkan aku semakin mengantuk

hujan

engkau kini sudah berhenti
sampai kita berjumpa lagi
tetapi satu yang ku sesali
tak sempat tidur kerana menulis puisi ini

– azfar ismail @ 01/02/05 – 16:26

minggu lepas, kolej aku buat benda event menatang ni. ramai gila yang participate. semak pulak rasanya kat student center dengan bebudak yang pakai baju kebaya la, baju melayu lah. time aku nak pergi account deparment haritu pun diorang menyemak gak. market la bebudak tu semua gamaknya. jual saham/muka. eii…geli aku…

wargh…finally. yep, akhirnya aku berjaya menyiapkan assignment aku. semuanya berjaya dicompilekan pada jam 7:00 pagi. tak tido lagi aku gamaknya hari ni. mata pun dah lebam semacam je. assignment terakhir aku siapkan ialah buku skrap multimedia. aku dah tak kira, main tampal aje apa-apa gambar yang aku gunting kat surat khabar ni. sebelum tu, aku duk struggle buat database dengan program data struct, siap dengan documentation. rasa cam nak meletup kepala. tiga hari yang lepas, aku habiskan masa aku duduk kat dalam bilik sahaje. takde keluar gi jalan-jalan ke, apa ke. tengok matahari pun jarang-jarang. kalau tak buat assignment, aku chatting, main game atau pun tido (tido aje la yang banyaknya). aku pun tak tau kenapa, sejak akhir-akhir ni aku asyik mengantuk aje. badan terasa nak tido. mungkin sebab kesan daripada ubat yang aku makan.

stress jugak le memandangkan final dah dekat. ditambah pulak dengan aku yang masalah je memanjang ni. kekadang terasa kosong jiwa ni. empty soul, hu hu hu…entah le. mungkin aku kena tukar cara hidup aku. kalau aku telan demerol berbijik-bijik pun tak dapat setel punye problem nih…

when i woke up to take a piss, i can’t sleep afterwards. so i watched joey, season 1 episode 15. i hear a fun quote.

“every guy has a disgusting photo on his computer”

–joey tribbiani

now, where did i put the photos…